life updates

My recent mystic exile from the blogging world was quite on purpose....I didn't go to South Africa to cheer for a particular DLF IPL team (I am not a good sports material anyway)...neither did I venture into the campaigning of country's massive general elections ( I wish I could understand politics).....for last 5-6 months....I spent most of the time in office (and in all honesty.....didn't make much headway there either :-).....when you don't do things as you had planned....nonsensical reasons become handy.......I don't want to state reasons such as "lack of time", "extremely busy" which would boast my state of absolute immersion in the routine work..(as if, It's only me in this world...who works in office)....but the long isolation from my much loved pastime (authorship) in these 6-7 months, has left my mind nothing less than a junkyard....housing innumerous thoughts waiting to be dumped somewhere.....even then I don't understand why....for the first time I did not feel the need of a paper to play the role of a regular dumb listener of my chatter.....(reminds me of Mr. Wilson from Cast Away...)......In this half year.....life underwent various controlled and uncontrolled shifts....ranging from things as trivial as cleaning my undergarments/socks on regular basis to as important as reading Ram-Charit-Manas daily....(oh by the way...I am nearly half done now....my largest stride in book reading )......

Things are fine in life....I start from home in the morning...I fight traffic.....I reach office.....I try to work.....I try to be productive..... end of the day, when I fail to get anything working....I abuse my work, my day......then I fight the traffic again and come back to home.....end of the month...I thank my employer and draw my salary....and end of the year...I abuse govt and pay my taxes....the only interesting part in these sequence of events is that...I have gotten a chance to work with some talented people after a long time.......I have realized that I am not really a technical guru (may be not I, but other people had that opinion about me)......after seeing a bunch of other talents around me.....I realized that before proclaiming your self a behemoth, you first need to look around and see the class of people you are competing with....the complexity of work you have.....and in what magnitude you have put efforts........as my colleague Shantanu says....almost everything is relative.....and so is success....when you compete with weaker sections......chances are you may effortlessly win....but what are the odds of victory when everyone else around is as talented as you (or may be even more...)?....I don't mind downplaying myself openly....I won't lie to my blog (unless there is a humor involved) and would say upfront what I am not good at.....face it......facts remain facts.....and they stand.....no matter you admit them or not....

There was a time in my career when I wanted to do great things.....things which are great in ideas.....things great in capacity........things great in dimension, comprehension, attention, attraction...things great in all possible facets......and now I sit at the corner of my cube and compile softwares, realizing that may be I belonged to the that section of the people who strongly need advice and counseling to help them understand the reality........not that I don't enjoy what I am doing currently.......but, to say, technology is boundless....you may never know when you start from one extreme and traverse through the chained link of components and emerge out to the other extreme....and thus may come across serendipity :)

On other note..... have been quite insulated from most of my friends/acquaintances/relatives.....I hardly get a chance to talk to them (thanks to the office work that comes up on Saturdays and Sundays)......you won't believe....I am spend nothing more than 500Rs every month on my postpaid connection (out of which 250 is mandatory rental).....and no...I don't use my landline at all.....I understand that, for a sleek, trendy, 2nd generation, Silver colored, Apple Iphone handset......this sounds like a sheer disgrace....but then, I am glad that I am atlest saving money somewhere ( there was a time when I used to pay 1500 per month)........and I hate to admit that I have become so unsocial....but again....face it.....facts remain facts.....and they stand.....no matter you admit them or not....