What do you want to be?

Question: How would you let you be somebody among anybody?

:) ok......not to scare you.....this post isn't a primer on "naukri paane ke 101 tareeke"....neither it's a self-help type text....overbearing tiresome philosophy and gyan on employment.....that question was a quotation I saw on the stepney (back) of a scooter one day....and I really don't know what it means......:)

So....this matter had been itching me since long....and I had been yearning to assemble my thoughts together to form a post someday....finally, I thought...It is either today...or never.....

A most common question.....which people ask each other...when they don't have anything else to discuss is...."what do you want to do in life?"....."what is your ambition?"....."where do you see yourself after 10 years?"....and they say these questions reveal about how big you dream, how big is your ambition or how high you think of yourself....and that, it is very important that you have answers to these questions.....but, when people ask me these questions.....The only answer I have is...."I don't know"....because?..... I really don't know.....at first.....they think....I am merely joking....or trying to conceal my plans...where as all I try to do is to be myself and answer the question honestly.....there is no logic and planning behind this answer.....neither does it mean that I don't want to be "somebody" in life.....lately after some compelling attempts from a new set of quizzers (who blamed..."come on man...you don't have ambition?...you don't want to be anybody?")....I gave it a thought as to why I really don't have any answer to these questions....and as far as I understood....to me....it is not much of concern as to what I will be down the road....or what I want to be like......neither I am concerned that I will be running heedlessly in multiple directions unless I set a goal.....the reason behind this uncertainty can have two folds (trust me, I am not sure which one of the two is correct one).....

Either

1. I want to do something big....of which I am not sure, at the moment, as to whether I will be really able to do.....and hence I answer "I don't know".
or

2. I don't think much about future....and just want to focus on the excellency of what I currently do....assuming my present excellence will automatically pave path for future excellence....and thus ...I answer "I don't know".....

I don't want myself to set an impracticably high ambition....like becoming CEO/CTO of a global multinational or a world known business tycoon...as to me they seem more like distant dream.....ambition is something that you should be able to realize within your capacity and your abilities....the very crucial thing that you should bear in mind is "what is your capacity", "what are your abilities?" and "when you think you will spill beyond your limits (break point) and give up?".....self realization....people call it.....and self realization doesn't happen over night......it takes years of experience to determine what you are really good at......when you realize what you are really good at that's when you set an ambition.....and work for it.......So, at this juncture....the only ambition I have is to excel and succeed in whatever I do....I try for excellence, quality and responsiveness in my work.......I try to groom these qualities so that they become a second nature.....I haven't really understood yet what I am really good at.....and thus I don't see it justified saying something garbage for e.g. I want to be CEO, Entrepreneur, PM, CM, or whatever heck.....just to answer these big questions.....

In summation....unless I get a genuine, practical answer of this question from myself......I would keep saying...."I don't know".....because....I don't know!!!

Hope that answers....